may intentions.

 

Oh my. It's May. I'm feeling mixed emotions of joy, and excitement, and overwhelm, and trepidation, and possibility, and fear.

How is April over, already?

I just completed a month of Joy Up-ing with Hannah Marcotti's online group, the Joy Up tribe. It was so wonderful. And joyful. And perfect. We've had emails from Hannah every morning, soulwork assignments each week, a private Facebook group for connecting -- it really did fill my month with JOY.

And now here's May, looming before us. The Joy Up is over (though the FB group is still open and I still plan on frequenting it) and my month focused on joy is no more. As it ended, I began to feel sad, lost, confused. I realized this was a familiar place for me -- letting my fear take over and immediately going to a place of "what do I do now?" I felt like I didn't have anything holding me up anymore, like all of a sudden I was alone again and didn't know which way to go next. And the movement all stopped. A very familiar place, yes.

And so I'm setting an intention for May, a new word to guide me this month. It only took me a minute to let it come to me, and it came perfectly naturally: STRENGTH. I'll recall the word and it will remind me that

I'm stronger than I think.
I can make my big dreams happen.
I have a whole bag of tools I've acquired for when I need help. 
I'm not alone.


This whole season feels big and scary and transformational. I feel like May is going to be chock full of changes and challenges and surprises and now

I feel like I'm ready for them.

I have my joy, and I have my strength.